To Braintree, from the kind-of popular white girl.

To Braintree, from the kind-of popular white girl.

TW: racism, derogatory language I am truly, honestly petrified to write this. I left Braintree to move to Washington, DC in August of 2015. I had no job, no friends, no sense of “social status.” It was a clean slate. It was then I started to think really introspectively about myself -- why I always [...]

How to chill the f*ck out when you’re bad at chilling the f*ck out

How to chill the f*ck out when you’re bad at chilling the f*ck out

Confession: I'm really bad at chilling the fuck out. When I'm not worried about work, school, guys, money, my chronic illness or how my body looks in the mirror, I find something else to worry about. I can't remember exactly when my anxiety started, but I can't remember a time where I didn't have anxiety. [...]

A cat call is not just a cat call.

A cat call is not just a cat call.

TRIGGER WARNING:  sexual assault, rape.       Hey gorgeous, can I take you out to lunch? Damn those legs.  My headphones suddenly becomes a mental shield. I know you heard me.  His presence is so close. The cigarette smoke fills my nostrils. Hey let me -- "Can you just fuck off? I'm not interested, leave [...]

No, I don’t want to grab a drink.

No, I don’t want to grab a drink.

Let's take one more shot and go back to your place.  My half-eaten ramen bowl sat in front of me with a cocktail glass half full of a crushed lime and watered down Tito's. Two more tequila shots please! Rail's fine.  Rail tequila? I'm equally grossed out as I am offended. He closes out his [...]

Reclaiming #selfcare: a happiness project

Reclaiming #selfcare: a happiness project

I've been holding off on writing this post for several reasons. I've written drafts, none of which felt right. I wasn't in the right mindset, and I'm not totally sure I am right now. Tonight, I find myself at a cider bar sipping on ice water. The lighting is dim, Ariana Grande's Sweetener album is on repeat [...]

I have a chewed piece of gum on my desk.

I have a chewed piece of gum on my desk.

The past few months I've received a lot of emails, Insta DMs and in-person Qs about my blog. I've sorta ~blogged about it~ before, but that was, like, almost a year ago. So, here's a refresher. Some of the Qs I've been asked are as follows: Why and when did you start it? How can I start [...]

Empty pizza boxes & stained coffee mugs.

Empty pizza boxes & stained coffee mugs.

This time was different.  *** The giant tower stood before me. "WELCOME, UMASS CLASS OF 2015" the banner read in bold crimson letters. 15th floor. Corner room. A lofted bed. My mother's fight to hold back her tears. We had already unloaded my father's truck of Rubbermaid plastic drawers, a $12.99 bright blue desk lamp [...]